Feelings of hurt and sadness still consumes me. Thoughts of you still runs through my head. Still wondering what went wrong. Why you left. Why you couldn't hold on. No longer hoping, no longer wishing. Dreams of a future I had planned long since died. Yet unable to let go. Unable or unready. Unready to let go of the love I so long craved for but never thought would have. Unready to let go of the person who meant the world to me. The only person I ever needed. The only one I ever loved.
The future is ahead of me, the past behind. Yet I'm still stuck in the present. My mourning, my sadness. Someday, I know, things will be better. I'll be able to move forward. Be ready to let go. Though, I know, there will be no one like you. No one who will be for me the way you were to me. My other half. My missing half. The likeness of me yet different. The one who makes me want to be the better version of myself. Yet I look forward to the day the memories no longer bring tears to my eyes. Nor the thought of the life I'll never have. Someday, I'll smile and laugh without feeling guilty. Someday, I'll open up and trust again. Someday, I'll be ready. But for now, I'm not ready to let go...
The future is ahead of me, the past behind. Yet I'm still stuck in the present. My mourning, my sadness. Someday, I know, things will be better. I'll be able to move forward. Be ready to let go. Though, I know, there will be no one like you. No one who will be for me the way you were to me. My other half. My missing half. The likeness of me yet different. The one who makes me want to be the better version of myself. Yet I look forward to the day the memories no longer bring tears to my eyes. Nor the thought of the life I'll never have. Someday, I'll smile and laugh without feeling guilty. Someday, I'll open up and trust again. Someday, I'll be ready. But for now, I'm not ready to let go...
