It's 1:30 in the morning and I'm still awake, finishing a rush file at home. Been woken up for the past two days by thoughts of you. Woke up crying. Never happened to me before. Never thought that was possible. Stress at work always makes me think of you I guess. Weird, huh? You were always the person I turned to when I felt like I couldn't deal with things. When I felt overwhelmed. Then I realized I don't have you anymore nor will I ever have you back. Dumb. Dumb! Dumb!! DUMB!!! I still can't stop hoping. It's not doing me any good. I need to get it through my thick head that it's over. That there's no turning back. It still hurts, no matter how hard I try to pretend it doesn't. No matter how hard I try to forget. I'm in a slump. I guess I'm tired. I dunno. People keep wanting to set me up with every "Great Guy" they know but I don't really feel up to it. I just feel worse whenever I think about it. I know it's crazy but I do. They're not you.
Ah crap! I wish I was over you. Maybe then I'd stop feeling like crap. Stop feeling like crying whenever anything reminds me of you. Stop waking up each day just to realize I will never be with you and all the hurt comes back. Pathetic, I know. Get out of this slump woman! He neither misses you nor does he ever think of you. He does not love you, he never did. The sooner you accept that, the better off you will be. But until that day comes, the day I can wake up and feel like things are as it should be, the day I'm finally ready to move on, I'll still miss you. I miss you.
Wearing my heart on my sleeve. Well, maybe just on cyber space. In the real world I still look like I have things in control. My emotions in check. A smile on my face. Dealing with the complexities of my new position at the office. Keeping a level head. Recently got promoted but couldn't be completely happy about it because I couldn't share the news with you. Had to stop myself from telling you. Don't really think you'd care anyway. Dunno why I keep making things hard on myself. I'm just probably nuts. It just really hurts so bad. Someday, oneday...
I miss you. Aah...the birthday blues.
Ah crap! I wish I was over you. Maybe then I'd stop feeling like crap. Stop feeling like crying whenever anything reminds me of you. Stop waking up each day just to realize I will never be with you and all the hurt comes back. Pathetic, I know. Get out of this slump woman! He neither misses you nor does he ever think of you. He does not love you, he never did. The sooner you accept that, the better off you will be. But until that day comes, the day I can wake up and feel like things are as it should be, the day I'm finally ready to move on, I'll still miss you. I miss you.
Wearing my heart on my sleeve. Well, maybe just on cyber space. In the real world I still look like I have things in control. My emotions in check. A smile on my face. Dealing with the complexities of my new position at the office. Keeping a level head. Recently got promoted but couldn't be completely happy about it because I couldn't share the news with you. Had to stop myself from telling you. Don't really think you'd care anyway. Dunno why I keep making things hard on myself. I'm just probably nuts. It just really hurts so bad. Someday, oneday...
I miss you. Aah...the birthday blues.
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