What did I do, you ask? After working almost 24 hours at the office, I came home and was met at the door by my dad greeting me "Happy birthday!" After all the hugs and kisses were over he casually informed me, "Oh, your great aunt just died." Oh, what fun!! Good thing I was too tired to do anything else than just stare at him and say, "Okay." Spent the best part of the morning watching Heroes on DVD and slept the afternoon away. Didn't really feel like celebrating. I just wanted to sleep. Just another day for me. No biggie.
At night, had dinner out with the family. It was cool. My sisters and brother were there, as well as my parents. Had some good food and laughed a bit but I was still feeling tired. After dinner spent four hours on the road just to go to the wake of my great aunt. So basically spent the rest of my birthday night on the road to see a dead relative. Eh, wasn't really that bad. Had a few laughs along the way. Took a nap in the car when we got there. Woke up and had breakfast and laughed at another great aunt (this one is alive). She's hilarious! Feisty little thing for a 70-something year old. They were all a hoot. Got in the car and drove another four hours home. Stopping along the way to buy food native to the area (My sister's idea. We just love to eat! Hahaha!)
Now I'm home. Still tired as hell and more than I was the day before. Just trying to chill a bit before I take a nap before I go out again in the evening. Some friends want to take me out to dinner. I really don't feel like going but they are all so excited to take me out on a birthday dinner and I don't have the heart to tell them I'd rather stay home and sleep. I seriously don't feel like celebrating. I just want to sleep.
Life is good and all. I am blessed with a lot of things. I just can't get over the date. The 23rd. Very poignant for me. The further away I can get from that date the better. The future holds much possibilities. Endless. I just don't feel like celebrating on my birthday. Not important. No big deal. I can look forward to the days ahead and I can celebrate those but not my birthday for something is missing. I accept that. It's just a day anyway. I'm rambling. Need sleep.
Thank you for those who remembered, especially the ones I haven't spoken to in a long time and those I never expected to have remembered. That means a lot more too me. Now I'll sleep and just worry about how I'm going to pretend that I'm enjoying myself later. I seriously am touched that my friends want to take me out and celebrate with me but I'd rather watch DVDs and sleep. Oh well, we'll see.
At night, had dinner out with the family. It was cool. My sisters and brother were there, as well as my parents. Had some good food and laughed a bit but I was still feeling tired. After dinner spent four hours on the road just to go to the wake of my great aunt. So basically spent the rest of my birthday night on the road to see a dead relative. Eh, wasn't really that bad. Had a few laughs along the way. Took a nap in the car when we got there. Woke up and had breakfast and laughed at another great aunt (this one is alive). She's hilarious! Feisty little thing for a 70-something year old. They were all a hoot. Got in the car and drove another four hours home. Stopping along the way to buy food native to the area (My sister's idea. We just love to eat! Hahaha!)
Now I'm home. Still tired as hell and more than I was the day before. Just trying to chill a bit before I take a nap before I go out again in the evening. Some friends want to take me out to dinner. I really don't feel like going but they are all so excited to take me out on a birthday dinner and I don't have the heart to tell them I'd rather stay home and sleep. I seriously don't feel like celebrating. I just want to sleep.
Life is good and all. I am blessed with a lot of things. I just can't get over the date. The 23rd. Very poignant for me. The further away I can get from that date the better. The future holds much possibilities. Endless. I just don't feel like celebrating on my birthday. Not important. No big deal. I can look forward to the days ahead and I can celebrate those but not my birthday for something is missing. I accept that. It's just a day anyway. I'm rambling. Need sleep.
Thank you for those who remembered, especially the ones I haven't spoken to in a long time and those I never expected to have remembered. That means a lot more too me. Now I'll sleep and just worry about how I'm going to pretend that I'm enjoying myself later. I seriously am touched that my friends want to take me out and celebrate with me but I'd rather watch DVDs and sleep. Oh well, we'll see.
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