wanted to write something for my blog but couldn't think of anything so i decided to email a friend instead. towards the end i realized it looked like something i'd post on my blog so what the heck. those who bother to read my blog basically know i put it out there anyway, my emotions. so if you want to comment on it, feel free. i'd be interested to know what people really think, even if i wouldn't like it. as for the person who this email is meant for, get back to me on it.
nothing. was tired of working so i was checking out my blog. was thinking about writing but felt tired and couldn't think of anything to write so i just read...and read...and read.
don't you find my posts depressing? i mean, is it just me or do people get depressed reading them? on the one hand i think most of what i wrote were pretty good, a bit eloquent even. Honest and open. No pretensions, just me being real. yet on the other hand it's depressing and/or full of crap. i dunno, what do u think?
i realized i couldn't read this one post without getting a little choked up. just that one post. it just seems so honest and real even for me. like my emotions where there for everyone to see. my vulnerability. it seemed like i couldn't get any more emotionally exposed than that. pretty short post but nevertheless...
maybe it's just me. maybe it just gets to me because in some way i still feel the way i did at the time i wrote it. maybe it's just because it means or meant something to me. maybe in time i won't feel the same way about it as i do now. maybe i'd even feel stupid putting it up there. maybe i'm being too introspective. maybe i think too much, feel too much. maybe. i dunno. lots of maybes. oh, well. someday...just someday.
i'll talk to you soon.
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nothing. was tired of working so i was checking out my blog. was thinking about writing but felt tired and couldn't think of anything to write so i just read...and read...and read.
don't you find my posts depressing? i mean, is it just me or do people get depressed reading them? on the one hand i think most of what i wrote were pretty good, a bit eloquent even. Honest and open. No pretensions, just me being real. yet on the other hand it's depressing and/or full of crap. i dunno, what do u think?
i realized i couldn't read this one post without getting a little choked up. just that one post. it just seems so honest and real even for me. like my emotions where there for everyone to see. my vulnerability. it seemed like i couldn't get any more emotionally exposed than that. pretty short post but nevertheless...
maybe it's just me. maybe it just gets to me because in some way i still feel the way i did at the time i wrote it. maybe it's just because it means or meant something to me. maybe in time i won't feel the same way about it as i do now. maybe i'd even feel stupid putting it up there. maybe i'm being too introspective. maybe i think too much, feel too much. maybe. i dunno. lots of maybes. oh, well. someday...just someday.
i'll talk to you soon.
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