Sitting here trying to focus on work with no success. Feeling restless and bored with work. I'm sick of it. Dunno what else to do though. Wish i was anywhere else but here right now. I want to scream and hit something. Listening to music while working hoping it'll keep me sane. Feel like throwing up.
I'm sick of everything. Sick of my life. Sick of the things around me. Sick of the same old shit day in, day out. But still don't know how to change it. Pissed off with myself for screwing up when I was younger. Regret some of the things I did that led me to where I am now. Should have done better when I was younger and maybe I would have more options than this. Maybe I'd be further along my way in life than stuck in this endless cycle of nothingness. Lots of maybes but thinking about it won't really do me any good but still can't help thinking about it.
I wish I was off traveling somewhere. Seeing old friends, meeting new people, experiencing new things, living life. Why does it all have to boil down to if one can afford it. Freaking pisses me off. If I could afford it I'd be off to God knows where doing whatever. I don't really care where or what. I just want to be anywhere but here. If I could afford it I'd be doing something else for work. I wouldn't have to worry too much about responsibilities since I knew I'd have it covered. If only it were so.
Rambling on and on and making no sense. Feel sick to my stomach. Need to relax but have no idea how. Nothing is as how I'd want it to be. Need to hang in there for a little bit longer. Holding on to the hope that things are going to be better soon. That this is just a phase that I seem to go through more frequently than before but somehow it'll end. Sick and tired of yesterday and today...can't wait for tomorrow. Tomorrow...everything will be better tomorrow.
I'm sick of everything. Sick of my life. Sick of the things around me. Sick of the same old shit day in, day out. But still don't know how to change it. Pissed off with myself for screwing up when I was younger. Regret some of the things I did that led me to where I am now. Should have done better when I was younger and maybe I would have more options than this. Maybe I'd be further along my way in life than stuck in this endless cycle of nothingness. Lots of maybes but thinking about it won't really do me any good but still can't help thinking about it.
I wish I was off traveling somewhere. Seeing old friends, meeting new people, experiencing new things, living life. Why does it all have to boil down to if one can afford it. Freaking pisses me off. If I could afford it I'd be off to God knows where doing whatever. I don't really care where or what. I just want to be anywhere but here. If I could afford it I'd be doing something else for work. I wouldn't have to worry too much about responsibilities since I knew I'd have it covered. If only it were so.
Rambling on and on and making no sense. Feel sick to my stomach. Need to relax but have no idea how. Nothing is as how I'd want it to be. Need to hang in there for a little bit longer. Holding on to the hope that things are going to be better soon. That this is just a phase that I seem to go through more frequently than before but somehow it'll end. Sick and tired of yesterday and today...can't wait for tomorrow. Tomorrow...everything will be better tomorrow.
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