Pain For a Friend

Heard some bad news about a friend yesterday which almost broke my heart.  I've been feeling that something was wrong for quite some time now but not even in my wildest imaginations that it was as bad as it is now for him.  He didn't have to say much but the little he said was like a knife through the heart.  I could feel his sadness and pain like it was my own.  I broke down and cried right in front of him...and I don't like people seeing me cry.  I felt so bad for him.  How could this happen to such a great guy?  I wanted to scream and kick and break something.  I was sad and mad at the same time.  Why the hell had this have to happen to one of the nicest people I've ever met?  Why do things like these happen to awesome, good hearted people while the wicked go around free without a care in the world?  It just doesn't seem fair.  WHY??  Then sanity dawns on me and I know that things happen for a reason.  That this will never defeat him and it's just the start to a new chapter in his life.  God has bigger and better plans for him.  And yet, I still can't stop feeling the pain.  I still cry when I think about what he's lost, what he's going through and feel helpless to help.  The pain is unbelievable.  I know that sounds strange especially because whatever is happening is not happening to me but to him but nevertheless I feel the way I do.  I can't explain it really.  It just hurts like crazy.  To see a friend in pain...to feel his pain, his sorrow.  To be honest, part of me would like to take his pain, absorb it so he doesn't have to feel it at all.  Maybe that's what I'm doing...transferring his pain unto me.  Maybe that's the only way I can help.  Wishful thinking perhaps?  Still seems that it just isn't right.  Why him?  Why now??  Damn the world we live in.  Damn those people who ruined him.  Damn you!  DAMN YOU!!!  The hate I feel for you is strong.  Hate...I shouldn't hate but can't help but feel hate.  Damn you, damn you, DAMN YOU!